It’s done! Cal Bar July 2014. Check. 
Unfortunately, three of the worst days of my life, without the slightest exaggeration. I’m ecstatic to be done with this, and I can’t wait to not study tomorrow, and the next day, and the next day. I’m trying to not over think my exam. For now it’s just margaritas, and Pink Taco, and friends, and boyfriend, and wine, and candy, and bad television, and everything lovely. 
It’s all beautiful on the other side. 

It’s done! Cal Bar July 2014. Check. 

Unfortunately, three of the worst days of my life, without the slightest exaggeration. I’m ecstatic to be done with this, and I can’t wait to not study tomorrow, and the next day, and the next day. I’m trying to not over think my exam. For now it’s just margaritas, and Pink Taco, and friends, and boyfriend, and wine, and candy, and bad television, and everything lovely. 

It’s all beautiful on the other side. 

I almost feel nostalgic. Yesterday I said farewell to my school library study stop. Oh, the memories. :) I’m not planning to go back. That feels weird. It’s been a strange, hard road these past 3 years. This morning I fueled up on groceries to get me through the 3 days of the exam. Now, I’m doing a final set of MBE questions and working through some essays on topics that I’m still not totally settled on. 1.5 days until the bar exam. I’m so excited to be done with this.

I almost feel nostalgic. Yesterday I said farewell to my school library study stop. Oh, the memories. :) I’m not planning to go back. That feels weird. It’s been a strange, hard road these past 3 years. This morning I fueled up on groceries to get me through the 3 days of the exam. Now, I’m doing a final set of MBE questions and working through some essays on topics that I’m still not totally settled on. 1.5 days until the bar exam. I’m so excited to be done with this.

Heading off to the library for the last time! The other students are becoming major stress cases so I want to stay away on Sunday and Monday. #3daysuntilthebarexam 

I had a great 4 mile run this morning so I’m feeling good and ready to go!

Heading off to the library for the last time! The other students are becoming major stress cases so I want to stay away on Sunday and Monday. #3daysuntilthebarexam

I had a great 4 mile run this morning so I’m feeling good and ready to go!

Over the weekend, after a long and difficult study session, I begrudgingly laced up my running shoes and went for my standard during-the-bar 3.5 mile loop. I didn’t want to do it. I was tired from the day. But I did it anyway. And you know what? I had the best time ever. This is so dorky, but I’m still thinking about how much fun I had on that run. It was just such a good reminder to me that

  • a) running is the best (duh), and
  • b) that there is still stuff out there that brings me joy (okay, this one is a little depressing but the bar exam is only a week away. I’m allowed to be depressing.. lol). 

After my run, I was having such a good time listening to my music and dancing around that I decided to take a couple of Photobooth photos. I used to love having silly photo sessions and I haven’t done one in a long time, honestly probably since 1L. So I fired it up and had a blast. This is the dorky result. 

My favorite part about these photos is that I think that I look really happy. Truly happy. How cool is it that I found running and that it makes me feel this happy, even during a really challenging time? It’s so cool- that’s the answer. So cool. Thanks, running, for making this summer as enjoyable as possible. 

The Final Week

I’m struggling. I’m constantly exhausted and eternally self- doubting. I keep reading things, but I don’t think anything is sticking. I spent all afternoon yesterday studying California Civil Procedure. Can I remember anything about it this morning? There’s something about a demurrer, right? Ugh. Such a frustrating process. My brain is angry.

Additionally, to make matters worse, I twisted and possibly sprained my ankle on my run last night. I’m just trying to stay healthy during this awful bar-studying-hell-process-thing, and then WHAM! I usually run the same route over and over again, and these days, my life is so routine and rote that I wanted to mix it up: so I ran in a different place. There’s a big street in West LA that has a big, grass-filled median that a lot of runners run in. It’s nice because you don’t have to worry too much about getting hit by a car, plus it makes you feel in-touch with nature, even though you’re just running in a median (that probably tells the sad story of how much nature is really in L.A.: RIP fields of green). So, I ran in the median, and it’s dirt and grass-filled and it’s difficult to see the dips in the ground. I was trying to be careful, but in a particularly grassy area, I stepped in a little dip and sort of “stubbed” my foot. I felt the pain instantly radiate to my ankle, and it hurt, but then it stopped hurting and I finished my 3.6 mile run. I thought everything was fine until I tried to walk after sitting on the couch for a while and my ankle hurt a lot! I iced it. Then I cried, because I’m a champion. I’ve been having so many problems with my body failing me this summer, and I just had a difficult time dealing with it last night. This morning, it feels mostly fine. I little sore and a little stiff, but the pain is gone. It’s fine. I was overreacting, but damn, I am really looking forward the bar being over so I can stop crying over silly stuff all the time. 

At this point in my studying, I’ve begun fantasizing about fairly regular (to people who aren’t studying for the bar…) things. My number 1 thing right is getting a haircut. I cannot stop thinking about how I’m going to get a haircut literally the day after the exam is over. Number 2? I’m SO EXCITED to go to my parents’ house and spend a few quality days with them AND THE DOGGIES!!! These fuzzy faces are all that’s getting me through right now. Doggies at the end of the tunnel.. keep going.. you have to see the doggies!! 

14 days until the bar exam. Thanks, Barbri, for making sure I don’t forget! Gosh, I’m almost going to miss having this view on the regular… almost… 

Now the big question is, can I really figure how to get all those pesky little minuscule rules and exceptions to the exception that I didn’t learn in law school into my head. I think most of the stuff that learned in law school has found a place in the brain (for the most part-ish), but some of the other stuff- I’m looking at you, community properly, is having trouble sticking. I hope it gets in there! I don’t really know how to fix it!

14 days until the bar exam. Thanks, Barbri, for making sure I don’t forget! Gosh, I’m almost going to miss having this view on the regular… almost…

Now the big question is, can I really figure how to get all those pesky little minuscule rules and exceptions to the exception that I didn’t learn in law school into my head. I think most of the stuff that learned in law school has found a place in the brain (for the most part-ish), but some of the other stuff- I’m looking at you, community properly, is having trouble sticking. I hope it gets in there! I don’t really know how to fix it!